Monthly Archives: October 2012

Halloween is my Favorite Holiday

I had a dream about a month ago that we found my mother’s ghost. She was in a church, dressed for her wedding. She couldn’t see us or respond to us; it was more like a home movie, projected. We … Continue reading

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It’s Late

I have this urge to do things I shouldn’t do. Like drink four cups of coffee at midnight when I have to get up early. It’s a way of testing boundaries, much like toddlers and teenagers are known for doing. … Continue reading

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Thinking about Diagnoses

Some people hate giving and receiving diagnoses. They feel like it’s a label, a jar to be squeezed into. It’s also a kind of prediction, which can easily turn into a self-fulfilling prophecy. How should I react to this? Well, … Continue reading

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A New Technique

It’s still cool and sunny and I have a new technique for living with this constant wolves-in-my-chest fear. It’s a crazy person’s technique, fitting for a crazy person like me. I give the fear away. It is meat to be … Continue reading

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