Monthly Archives: April 2013

College Years

I guess mine are about done, barring any unforeseen crisis. I’ve taken my last classes and turned in my final projects. The graduation ceremony is in a week and some days. I didn’t really have the typical college experience. For … Continue reading

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New Blog

I love starting new blogs. It makes me feel engaged and hopeful. As I wrote about yesterday, I’m interested in reviving my identity as a reader. I don’t want to bog down this blog with literary stuff, so I started … Continue reading

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Bookworm

I used to be someone who loved words. I read constantly, and I was always finding things – phrases, metaphors, entire chapters – to love. It seemed like ever novel or poem had some little surprise in it; even the … Continue reading

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Androgyne

Girl lessons: a girl in seventh grade trying to teach me how to swing my hips so we could lip synch to a song from Grease in our theater class. Going to the mall with the older girls in my … Continue reading

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Over the Wall

At a SMART meeting we talked about hitting a wall. Apparently this often happens about three or four months into recovery. A lot of people experience a honeymoon phase when they first start feeling the benefits of sobriety and everything … Continue reading

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Safe and Unsafe

how does someone with avpd know if someone is safe Someone found my blog by searching for the above. I’ve been thinking about it all morning. It really struck a chord with me, because it is a question that I … Continue reading

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Having a Rough Time Doesn’t Mean You’re Doomed

This is what I have been repeating to myself lately. One hard night or stressful day doesn’t mean that all the bad times are coming back. It’s just one hard night, one stressful day. Don’t panic. I wrote about euphoric … Continue reading

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