Category Archives: Addiction Recovery

Truce with the Devil

So, alcohol. I haven’t written about it in months, and that’s because I want my story to be a tidy “I saw the light and got sober and now I’m all better” narrative, and it’s not. I know there are … Continue reading

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Advice about Therapy

I know it’s been a long time since I posted. Work and napping after work have kind of taken over my life. One thing I’ve been thinking about is starting therapy for the first time, as a friend of mine … Continue reading

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Honesty and Embarrassment

I’ve never been an especially honest person, outside of this blog, which no one I know in real life reads. I don’t steal from people or pretend my dad is in the CIA or anything. I tell the little lies … Continue reading

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Day 6

I have been alcohol-free for six days, my longest stretch since June or July. In my head, the imaginary audience that reads this blog must be getting sick of me posting stuff like that. My first sobriety date, the day … Continue reading

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The Paradox Cure

Here’s a fun fact about avoidant personality disorder: it’s often co-morbid with addiction or substance abuse issues. In my case, that would be alcohol abuse. Which isn’t surprising; alcohol is one of the few intoxicants you can buy without having … Continue reading

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Adventures in Identities

The way it’s supposed to go is that you stumble across a room full of people somewhere – in the real world, online, in a living room or a club. People with a certain something, a quirk or a look … Continue reading

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Little Stone

My old therapist gave me this stone at our last meeting. When I got to my new place, I placed it on a desk and soon forgot it was there. I was looking for a job, spending time with old … Continue reading

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