Category Archives: AvPD

What’s So Scary?

It’s a little late for New Year’s resolutions, but I have been trying to try a new thing: less time on mindless websites, more time reading real books, or writing, or basically existing in the world in some substantial way. … Continue reading

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I Suck at Being Queer

Well, sometimes it feels that way. God knows I’ve tried. I’ve hung out in gay clubs, joined a drag troupe (that I quickly dropped out of because my social anxiety was too much at the time), flirted with women online. … Continue reading

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“The Little, Little Maybe”

Have you ever read “I Never Promised You a Rose Garden” by Joanne Greenberg? It’s probably my favorite book about living with mental illness; it’s also where the title of this post comes from. I know I haven’t posted in … Continue reading

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The Paradox Cure

Here’s a fun fact about avoidant personality disorder: it’s often co-morbid with addiction or substance abuse issues. In my case, that would be alcohol abuse. Which isn’t surprising; alcohol is one of the few intoxicants you can buy without having … Continue reading

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Magic Trick

She’s got one magic trick; Just one and that’s it. She disappears. – “Magic Trick,” M. Ward I have always been fascinated with the phenomenon: all you have to do is leave a place, and you are transformed from flesh … Continue reading

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Adventures in Identities

The way it’s supposed to go is that you stumble across a room full of people somewhere – in the real world, online, in a living room or a club. People with a certain something, a quirk or a look … Continue reading

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A Little Good News

I had an in-take appointment with a new therapist on Friday. This time I went to the local GLBT center to find a therapist, since a big issue with the last one I tried was that I just didn’t feel … Continue reading

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