Category Archives: Relationships

A Tiny, Drifting Family

When I am on retreats, each afternoon I walk and wring my hands, saying to all the mental health patients of the world, “You don’t have to wring your hands today. I am doing it for you.” – Marsha Linehan, … Continue reading

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Saying Goodbye to a Therapist

I’ve never really had a final session before. In the past I’ve just gotten frustrated with a certain therapist and stopped going, or moved away without ceremony. On Friday I had my official final session with the therapist I’ve been … Continue reading

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Okay, This Is My Last Post about Relationships

Because I don’t think I’ll be trying one again. I’ve never intentionally hurt anyone. This is different from saying “I’ve never hurt anyone.” I’m starting to think of my inner world and the real world as distinct kingdoms. They need … Continue reading

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I Am an Asshole

I hate people who fall in love easily, that special prickly hate that can only be fueled by jealousy. They have found it, I think, that connecting point between abstract thought and reality. They know how to take thoughts and … Continue reading

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Boys

It turns out that email is the perfect way for me to flirt, if not the only way I can do it. It’s intimate and impersonal at the same time. It lacks the anxiety and awkwardness of facial expressions, hands, … Continue reading

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Valentine’s in November

My chest hurt. I checked my email obsessively. I felt this unusual kind of needing, like where I was and what I had was suddenly not enough to live on. It’s been so long since I had a crush on … Continue reading

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