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Sometimes It Gets Old

I don’t know what “normal” means, exactly, but I imagine it involves not having to scan through a list of names trying to choose the one you will trust with your most intimate information – ultimately basing the decision on … Continue reading

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Saying Goodbye to a Therapist

I’ve never really had a final session before. In the past I’ve just gotten frustrated with a certain therapist and stopped going, or moved away without ceremony. On Friday I had my official final session with the therapist I’ve been … Continue reading

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Who’s Smart?

You have to be smart to have value. This has been a year of excavation, bringing up old assumptions¬†for careful examination. It’s been both frightening and a huge relief to think that I might not be some fundamentally flawed, unlovable … Continue reading

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New Blog

I love starting new blogs. It makes me feel engaged and hopeful. As I wrote about yesterday, I’m interested in reviving my identity as a reader. I don’t want to bog down this blog with literary stuff, so I started … Continue reading

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Bookworm

I used to be someone who loved words. I read constantly, and I was always finding things – phrases, metaphors, entire chapters – to love. It seemed like ever novel or poem had some little surprise in it; even the … Continue reading

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Androgyne

Girl lessons: a girl in seventh grade trying to teach me how to swing my hips so we could lip synch to a song from Grease in our theater class. Going to the mall with the older girls in my … Continue reading

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Over the Wall

At a SMART meeting we talked about hitting a wall. Apparently this often happens about three or four months into recovery. A lot of people experience a honeymoon phase when they first start feeling the benefits of sobriety and everything … Continue reading

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