Tag Archives: AvPD

“Crazy”

Posted on July 18, 2014 by toujoursgai

I know a lot of mentally ill people and their allies would love to get rid of the word “crazy.” It stigmatizes people and minimizes their pain. I’m sympathetic to the argument, even if I don’t feel as strongly about … Continue reading →

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A Mechanism for Letting Go

Posted on June 11, 2014 by toujoursgai

(TW: Self harm) I did something stupid at work last week. Not a moral offense or a “worried about getting fired” level of stupidity, just something embarrassing. I worried about it for the rest of the afternoon. I cried a … Continue reading →

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“The Little, Little Maybe”

Posted on April 12, 2014 by toujoursgai

Have you ever read “I Never Promised You a Rose Garden” by Joanne Greenberg? It’s probably my favorite book about living with mental illness; it’s also where the title of this post comes from. I know I haven’t posted in … Continue reading →

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The Paradox Cure

Posted on November 17, 2013 by toujoursgai

Here’s a fun fact about avoidant personality disorder: it’s often co-morbid with addiction or substance abuse issues. In my case, that would be alcohol abuse. Which isn’t surprising; alcohol is one of the few intoxicants you can buy without having … Continue reading →

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Circles

Posted on November 16, 2013 by toujoursgai

I was once in a therapy group where you had to name the emotion you were feeling at the beginning of every session. Once I said, “Tired.” The therapist shook her head and handed me a chart with dozens of … Continue reading →

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Adventures in Identities

Posted on November 2, 2013 by toujoursgai

The way it’s supposed to go is that you stumble across a room full of people somewhere – in the real world, online, in a living room or a club. People with a certain something, a quirk or a look … Continue reading →

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A Little Good News

Posted on October 27, 2013 by toujoursgai

I had an in-take appointment with a new therapist on Friday. This time I went to the local GLBT center to find a therapist, since a big issue with the last one I tried was that I just didn’t feel … Continue reading →

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Small World, Part 2

Posted on October 21, 2013 by toujoursgai

Dammit, I’m being swallowed up by Small World again. My job provokes more anxiety than I can handle. The constant interaction with strangers, the office politics, the dysfunctional environment. I would love to quit, but: a) I need the money, … Continue reading →

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