Tag Archives: social anxiety

Spillover

Here’s my goal right now: it’s less about actually being healthy or happy, and more about keeping my defects as contained as I can. It’s strange how long the fear of being shamed can endure, way past the point where … Continue reading

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I Suck at Being Queer

Well, sometimes it feels that way. God knows I’ve tried. I’ve hung out in gay clubs, joined a drag troupe (that I quickly dropped out of because my social anxiety was too much at the time), flirted with women online. … Continue reading

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Magic Trick

She’s got one magic trick; Just one and that’s it. She disappears. – “Magic Trick,” M. Ward I have always been fascinated with the phenomenon: all you have to do is leave a place, and you are transformed from flesh … Continue reading

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The Paradox

I’ve been listening to beautiful music. Some of it, my parents loved. Cat Stevens, James Taylor. When my parents first met back in the seventies, they decided that their song was “Time in a Bottle” by Jim Croce. When my … Continue reading

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