Monthly Archives: May 2013

Mere Cries for Help

Posted on May 28, 2013 by toujoursgai

Trigger warning: This post discusses suicide and suicidal ideation. I tend to avoid conversations about suicide. It’s a topic that interests me on both a personal and academic level, but there are certain ideas that tend to come up over … Continue reading →

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One Year

Posted on May 20, 2013 by toujoursgai

There is one hour left in May 19th. I don’t really have much to say, but I feel like I should make a note of it. At this time one year ago I was probably trying to sleep in one … Continue reading →

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Little Craving Seeds

Posted on May 18, 2013 by toujoursgai

I moved to a new city last week. I’ve looked up SMART and SOS meetings since I’ve been here, but I haven’t gone to one yet. I’ve been busy; I’ve been anxious about meeting strangers; I’ve been enjoying the feeling … Continue reading →

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New Therapist

Posted on May 16, 2013 by toujoursgai

I went in to the waiting room prepared with a list of questions I wanted to ask: Do you have experience treating AvPD? What about addiction and recovery issues? What about queer issues? There were also plenty of things about … Continue reading →

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Saying Goodbye to a Therapist

Posted on May 6, 2013 by toujoursgai

I’ve never really had a final session before. In the past I’ve just gotten frustrated with a certain therapist and stopped going, or moved away without ceremony. On Friday I had my official final session with the therapist I’ve been … Continue reading →

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Who’s Smart?

Posted on May 3, 2013 by toujoursgai

You have to be smart to have value. This has been a year of excavation, bringing up old assumptions for careful examination. It’s been both frightening and a huge relief to think that I might not be some fundamentally flawed, unlovable … Continue reading →

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